I'm the human equivalent of a cactus.  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 24, 2017, 5:48 p.m.   |   Public I may well be the Facebook Blocked List Queen. At last count I, I have over 800 names on my Blocked List. I block all republicans, fundamentalist christians, sport hunters, bigots, and anyone who defends anyone who is. After the last presidential election, I blocked a few people I’d previously really wanted to maintain contact with; including my half sister, and a very old friend, because they supported Cheeto Mc.Pussygrabber. And after that, I gave up on Facebook. It seemed like, sooner or later, I was going to block  everyone ; so what was the point of even going there? Obviously I need a new strategy if I’m going back. And I have to go back eventually, to market my art. That’s where I made most of my sales in years past, so it’s something that I have to come up with a plan for. Presently I’m just posting funny c...

Mundanity on a good day:  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 24, 2017, 8:30 p.m.   |   Public Mundanity Everybody else writes about their daily pointlessness. Maybe I should too, while I wait for dinner. Be jealous, sundry women, for my mate is a cook of no small talent. I never know what he’s making. He just brings in the food, and I try to act pleasantly surprised, even on burrito days. If he dies before me, I’ll be living on Banquet T.V dinners, and it will suck. Of course I’ll be too suicidal from missing him to care, but that’s not the point. We got over our fight a few days ago, as I knew we would. Been there, done that. At an average of one fight a month, for twenty one years, that’s 252 fights. So it’s no wonder I can predict the outcomes at this point.  He apologized and promised to use actual words next time. (Duh!) We had some  exceptional  sex yesterday. He ignored me while I was washing a cat...

On masks and self-harm:  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 25, 2017, 4:31 p.m.   |   Public Other people are afraid of loved ones seeing their diaries. I’m not. I’ve spent my entire life offending and upsetting everyone I know; so I’m transparent. I gave up on trying to only show people the parts of me that I think they’d like a LONG time ago. No matter what I do sooner or later I p!ss off everybody but the most patient and compassionate subset of the population  anyway . Therefore pretending to be something that I’m not is pointless. I’m terrible at maintaining the mask, so I just never even bother to put it on unless I really have to. That’s why this is public, and both the Male and my Australian friend have standing invitations to read it anytime they want. Pretenses just make keeping them straight a pain in the ass. I’m as “real” as it gets. - The Male told me, early in our relationship, that he liked me because I’m ...

 Unread Asenath Waite  Follow  Friend Today in bimbos who need a reality check:  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 27, 2017, 8:35 a.m.   |   Public Firstly, I don’t see how this could be construed as an “attack” on anyone, since I don’t mention who it is. At one point I quote her, because it’s relevant, but that’s it. So if my venting is too inflammatory, I’ll just stop coming here, because  venting  is what I created this blog thing  for . I copy everything to Blogger too, so I can shut this down at any time. - I’m well used to getting run out of places, this would hardly be the first. And there’s a reason the Prosebox Facebook page has less than 10k “likes”. With that out of the way: So I just blocked another person here, because her constant complaining about  nothing  finally became unbearable. If this were facebook, I would’ve said something first, but since the vastly infe...

My species continues to disappoint and confound me.  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 28, 2017, 2:55 p.m.   |   Public So yesterday we went to the EOPA to renew PIPP, the program that keeps our power and gas at 6% of our income. - Just to show that it is possible to create successful “masks”, (much like a sociopath), without really understanding what you’re doing, (NOT like a sociopath); the lady who did our paperwork struck me as cute. - (Yes, I’m in a relationship that will probably last me until I’m dead, but that doesn’t make me blind; and some women do look attractive to me. I had a girlfriend once, a long time ago. But I digress.) So without thinking about it at all, I apparently shifted to “flirty” mode, completely unintentionally, and we walked out of there with our back gas bill written off, a free air conditioner and tickets to a baseball game; neither of the last two of which we needed.  sigh and eye roll ...

A particularly stupid survey, between the neurologist and a nap.  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 29, 2017, 3:30 p.m.   |   Public My neurologist is going back to school, and won’t be in his office for a year. Everything’s fine, though; so I’m just not scheduled to see him again until next year. My blood pressure was 98 over 68, but he said that that’s acceptable, since the propranolol is really helping me, and I have no side effects that I’m aware of. I’ve had those stupid tremors since 2000, thinking that they were caused by a blood sugar issue, and unable to see a doctor. All praise be unto Obamacare, now that I’m finally in a state that has it. - I told him that I really appreciate him, that I’d had those shakes for nearly two decades until I saw him; and he seemed pleased to hear that. - I did not mention how striking a smile looks on a dark, Pakistani face; but it does. I called my Mom and tried to explain to her wh...

Opinions? These are the sorts of questions I would ask if I made a survey:  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 29, 2017, 11:21 p.m.   |   Public This seemed like a reasonable way to pass the time while I wait for my sedatives to kick in. So, are these poor questions? Honesty, please. I keep referring to surveys as “stupid”, so it seems logical that I might try to make my own; and someone else said something supportive to that effect, so here we are. The difference is that I prefer questions with depth. Maybe ordinary people just don’t like to delve much past the surface of their lives? My therapist says of aspies, “We’re not puddles. We’re deep.” The obvious insinuation being that other people aren’t. In which case I could intentionally try to make one that’s shallow, but the sarcasm would be obvious; with questions like: Do you have lampshades in your home? Sunglasses or a hat? Do you flush every single time you use...

The Male is jealous of the dog.  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  June 30, 2017, 9:35 p.m.   |   Public The worst part being, he next to never talks about his feelings about ANYTHING, so I know that he either can’t, or won’t, ever talk about it. Until maybe a year or more from now, when it’s so far in the proverbial rear view mirror that it’s no longer either applicable or relevant; and emotions are things that pretty much  have  to be talked about, to fix any problems with them. He hasn’t played with her since she was very small. I thought that was because I spend so much time training her, that he didn’t want to interfere. He next to never touches her at all, but again, I figured that was because he saw her as “mine”. (He never touches any of my stuff, as a general rule, despite repeatedly being told that he can.) She will occasionally lick his hand, and he just ignores her, which I didn’t understand, but there’s a...

This is bad. Edited, now EIGHT fights in a month; and he hit the dog for no reason.  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright. Revised: 07/01/2017 3:09 p.m.  July 1, 2017, 7:46 a.m.   |   Public I keep a completely private diary, specifically for the purpose of recording our fights, while they’re still raw and fresh in my memory; because my day to day memory is pretty bad. Normally, we have one or two fights a month; and in a case where it’s two, they’re both over the same thing, so it’s really more of a continuation than a separate argument. In June, there were SEVEN fights. Five over separate things. (As of July first, if you count today, EIGHT.) So of course I ask myself, “What’s different about June?”. The only thing that I can see is that the Male has a lot more income now, because he can collect social security while he works his part time job. So apparently “more money” somehow equals “become an ass”? Does that even make sens...

Half asleep mundanity  in  People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.  July 3, 2017, 1:10 p.m.   |   Public The sedatives that I take to sleep haven’t completely worn off yet, but after my last entry, I wanted to provide some sort of an update, if only a groggy one; and I have a lot on my To-do list today, so I may not have an opportunity later. He’s been  extremely quiet . To the point of grunts and nods in answer to direct questions. With one exception: He burned his foot pretty badly with boiling water last night, (not like rush to the ER bad, but he’s going to have a nice sore there for a while), and I chuckled. I said, in passing, “You hit my dog, then you burn your foot. I have no sympathy at all.” He said gruffly: “Do we have anything to put on a burn?!” I said “Yeah. It’s on your desk already. That neopsporin that we got for Pumpkin.” I told him to let it air, don’t put ice or water on it, and that he wants the blisters to pop an...