Nov. 17th 2016

The root. in People suck. Cats are awesome. Dogs are alright.

•  Nov. 17, 2016, 11:59 a.m.
 
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I’ve been learning about serial killers while I’ve had breakfast the past few weeks, and I had an epiphany. Or something similar. A lot of serial killers, at the root of their hate for other people, is a hatred for thier mothers. If your mother is a cunt, it’s hard to admit that to yourself, so instead you say “the world is full of cunts”, and turn your rage at other people. Ed Kemper, who killed a bunch of hitchhikers; the last person he killed before he turned himself in was his mother. He cut her head off, put it on the mantle, and threw darts at it for two days.

I couldn’t do that. It’s too messy. The gross factor prevents me from wanting to dismember anybody indoors. And I’m still too conflicted about my mother to be able to kill her. But I think I’m finally coming to grips with the fact that she isn’t and wasn’t a very good parent.

Of course, she’s not the only reason that I am the way I am. My siblings are pretty horrible too. And my classmates were awful. And I was in school before bullying was recognized as a dangerous thing. I got told to “get a thicker skin”, “learn to handle it”, and “you’re not a little kid any more”.

My therapist says that my father is what “saved” me from drugs or being violent.  He’s the only one who ever really cared.

The thing is, the world really is a terrible place. People, by and large, will not help others. They’re more concerned about themselves, their religion, their own little bubble of pseudo reality. Even as factory farming, deforestation, fossil fuels and overpopulation destroy our species; nobody cares. They’re too busy being idiots.

Which is why I laugh when I see a kid fall off of his bike, or some moron being carted away in an ambulance, or a house on fire. They’re all worthless, egocentric, idiots; who probably have far better lives than me, and serve no purpose even existing.

I was thrown away. I was abandoned. I have ONE person who cares about me and talks to me and helps me without being paid to do so. And he’s the only friend or family I’ve had for the last twelve years. And before that, what I thought I had, was an illusion. Because my father was alive and my family respected him.

I’ve just had it.

People are so cruel and stupid that they absolutely deserve the Pussygrabber administration. I hope this entire country suffers. I hope rednecks and Bible thumpers especially end up crying and cussing. They’ve earned it.

If I had my way, the entire southern half of this country would be napalmed.

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